It's kinda like Mom Guilt. You know, when you question every decision you make, wondering if it was the right thing to do?
I try to work really hard to make sure the outside of my house looks nice. Every spring I plant new flowers in the front beds and spread tons of mulch. I've replaced the dead builders shrubs (twice) to make sure the landscaping looks symmetrical. And I replace hanging flower baskets on my front porch seasonally.
Last spring a couple of birds decided that my hanging flower baskets were a great place to nest. TWO of my four baskets found themselves the home of a mama bird, a daddy bird, and a nest full of tiny eggs that eventually hatched into tiny birds.
It was kinda cute and exciting at first. Every once in awhile I'd gently lower the baskets so that my kids could see the nest, then the itty bitty babies. We all loved watching our babies grow up.
Unfortunately, in order to keep from drowning the babies, I could no longer water the flowers. Hence, two out of four hanging baskets died. And continued to hang there, a blemish smack dab in the middle of the face. It was not the most attractive sight to see as you pulled into the driveway. As soon as the babies flew the nest, I replaced the baskets.
A couple of weeks ago, I completed my spring planting. New petunias, azaleas, snapdragons and geraniums went into the ground. So many bags of mulch were spread. And four beautiful new baskets were hung. Then last night as we ate dinner, Gabe commented on the birds outside the window.
Not today, birds.
I immediately saw the birds he was looking at, perched on the side of my basket. I ran out the front door, scaring them away. I then proceeded to check out all of the baskets for anything they may have left behind.
Those damn birds built an entire nest in a day!
Thankfully, no eggs inside. So in order to save my plant (don't judge me, they aren't cheap!), I pulled the nest out.
And as I did, they watched me.
The mama and the daddy perched right on the edge of my roof, watching me destroy their home. And I'm pretty sure I felt their sadness.
Seriously, my heart bleeds that much. THE BIRDS made me feel guilty. I come from a long line of bird lovers. I keep several feeders in the backyard. My kids and I love to watch them out the window as we eat breakfast every morning. Young Gabe can now identify several species. I even have a hummingbird tattooed on my body. I love birds. And I felt bad that those two house finches just wanted to start a little family and I crushed their dreams.
I left the nest tucked away in the landscaping, so that in the midst of their grief, they could at least keep the materials and move onto a different location.
Mr. and Mrs. House Finch, I wish you and your family-to-be years of good health and prosperity.
Just not on my front porch.